A Girl With The Best Feeling In The World

Well i think It’s enough for me, but actually i couldn't stop this. This. This feelings, the feelings which i am not able to hurt people by words. The feelings which i always tend to appreciate people. The feelings which making me feel worst when i make people glum. The feelings which i have to make people happiness as a priority when they are around.

If i think about it twice, i knew. I am a morons. But what can i do? I can do nothing. My feelings is so strong, stronger than my logic. My logic says that my feelings is insane but my feelings says that my logic is wicked.

So how can i stand it?

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It was Monday morning, where i have to go to school, a very harmful place with various peeps character. Wicked. But pretty dope.

It was the last year of school, i thought it would the last year of hell of my life. I THOUGHT LOL.

In class, i sat with this girl, the girl that i think would be my bestfriend forever. She’s pretty cool, pretty fun, and pretty cute.

I almost spend my highschool time with her.  Hang out together, work together, and playing around together. She’s pretty good with my sense of humor, that’s why i like her. And what’s so good? I never tell anything that make her bad. 

But that day, everything just like a reverse.

I made mistakes.

A very small mistakes.

I remember, i was just called her.... blind?

And guess what? she mad as hell, she wont talk to me for 3 months and make me confused. I dont know what’s wrong with it, it’s a joke.

It’s a common joke like we did everyday. It’s a common joke like she told me that i’m short, ugly, flatnosed, stupid, idiot, coward, etc. So what’s wrong with it? Anyone tell me what’s wrong?

See... she told me so, and i’m not angry. I laugh and silent. Even it’s hurt. Hurt. Hurt. 

If i can say, what she told me was sounds like bullying.

But what did i do? I did nothing. Because my feeling is insane. Just like my logic say.

I never told anything that hurt her, i never called her like she called me. I shut up. 

And things get worst.

She told me that i cant be what i want.... she told me that i can't be success on my way....

Hurt isn't it?

But still... i carve a smile on my face. And didnt say anything that hurt her.

To be continue....

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